Pastor
Peter Soratana
In Psalms
119:105, your word is a lamp unto my feet and a light on my path.
Nowadays
we may not use torchlight. In Thailand we use street lamps and car light as we
travel. There are lights all over the city and it's bright. Sometimes we rely
so much on the lamp post that we did not realise our headlights are not
working. Only in darkness do we realise the headlights are not working. Without
the headlights we cannot move on.
The word
of God is like that light. Many times we can still go on with our lives because
we rely on the street lamps in the cities. When we are in the dark, then we
realise we need the light from the word.
There was
one time I needed to travel from Bangkok to a place that's dark in the
mountains. It's the first time we went there. We started to question the
villagers how to get there. They gave directions but the best is to stay
overnight. But I needed to leave because I needed to preach the next day.
The way
became darker and darker and we relied on the headlights. The road has lots of
bends so we had to move slowly. Near midnight it was full of fog and we could
not see. The headlights shined on the fog so we cannot see the way. So we used
fog lights. The moment we on the fog light, the light became so bright we could
see the way.
Apart
from the word of God that we rely on, we also need a special word from God so
that we can break through the fog. We cannot just rely on our knowledge but
based on the word of God through the relationship we have with God. It's the
word of God through our experience. Something we can pull from our heart and
apply it.
We
sometimes just open the Bible when in trouble to look for the word of God. And
we can't find it. At the end of the sermon I will call on a person to share his
testimony. I want to tell you problems exist not just to war against the
Christians but also everyone. Health, relationship, finance, problems in school
which attacks us. Problems come with sin. Because everyone sin and fall short
of the glory of God. Those who fall in sin are slaves to the sin. And there's
no way to escape the sin that strangles you.
A lot of
people try to be a good person to escape from sin. Or try all kinds of things.
Like accumulate a lot of money to break free from sin. Some people try by going
to certain places or worship idols. Or be involved in charity to break free
from sin. Everything that belongs to the slave belongs to the master. All the
goodness the slave does belongs to the master. So all the good things the slave
does cannot break free from the master. But there is a higher power and we need
this higher power to buy you out.
John 3:16
For God so loved the world that he
gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but
have eternal life.
All of
you have been bought from sin and all of you have been bought from the master.
God uses his status as King of kings to buy you out. But nobody seems to
realise that and still act like a slave. Some change from Buddhism to
Christianity but still live as a slave. God has bought you with the high price
in Jesus Christ. God bought you expecting nothing in return. So how should you
respond? Just believe in what God has done for you. God has bought and paid for
you so you are no longer a slave.
Sickness
belongs to a slave. Fighting with one another belongs to a slave. We don't have
to fight each other. God has enough gifts for everyone so no need to be jealous
of anyone.
We often
have enemies surrounding us. Like receiving a letter of termination. There are
different sorts of problems but it's how we response to these problems. We may
respond with worries. And do not know how to handle the problem. Or you go to a
doctor and is told you have a problem and we believe what the doctors say. And
believe what is happening to us. Or you read a letter and and is told your
son's application to a school is rejected. We respond with shock. This is the
response in the example of 1King 6. Or blame the servant of God. And refuse to
accept our mistakes but blame others.
In 2
Chronicles King Jehoshaphat faced the same problem when surrounded by enemies.
But King Jehoshaphat seek help from God. A different kind of response from two
different kings.
I'd like
to invite my wife Pinky. We have been together 9 years. God is alive and he's
been dealing with our problems all these years. When Pinky was pregnant three
months, the doctors told us all is well and it's a boy. 95%. So we decided to
name our life child as Peniel, the face of God. Someone that God will use in
future. At the 4th month we consulted the doctor again and we found something's
wrong. The kidney of the baby is not working. The left side is bigger and the
right side is smaller than normal. Both kidneys are not working. The doctor
told us to abort and that he will pay for all the bills.
He wanted
to send us to KL and to provide us accommodation apart from paying for the
bill. Everything seemed like a blessing because all will be paid and we were
told we can try again. But we trust in God. He promised that he will bless us
and it will not come with sorrow. And the child is a blessing. God will take
care of it and we believed. The doctor say he won't take care of us anymore and
told us to consult another doctor. We believed that when we come for an
ultrasound all will be normal. But the second doctor told us the same diagnosis
as the first doctor.
Many
people may respond and say this had to be true because both doctors said the
same things. But not us. We consulted a third doctor at Island Hospital and God
blessed us with someone who sponsored us. We hoped for a change but it was the
same. Both kidneys not working. And the doctor said he will do the abortion. It
seems right because we can do it here instead of KL. But no, we trusted in God.
If we trust in God we will continue to walk with him. It's like driving the car
without a headlight. We believe God will help us to turn the situation into
good.
So we
decided to consult the 4th doctor and we found a Christian doctor. We had to go
to Butterworth and after the ultrasound, the same thing, both kidneys not
working. But the doctor didn't say abort. He said we can trust God and not
worry but to praise him.
We
consulted the same doctor the 5th time which was the same result. We came to
church and some people felt sympathy and some were negative like that we were
not good servants of God. Must be the punishment of God. So some wanted us to
return back to Thailand and they will take over the ministry. We still love
them and forgive them. But what they told us was contradictory but we tell
people about our child and all is good.
We felt
pressurised by church members to move back to Thailand. But we had to be strong
and appear cheerful as it will affect the health of the baby. But we didn't
receive the love and support from the surrounding but we have God. Every
morning we praise God and we put our hands on the child and prayed that through
his stripes Peniel will have life and will be born strong. We spoke goodness on
our child. We did not let the ultrasound play on our mind.
We
believed that the child will be healthy and strong. If you believe you will see
greater things. At 7 months during the usual check up, everything was still the
same despite the prayers and trust. But our faith still remains and we believe
in God that this blessing will not come with sorrow. We did not believe in what
we see. We continued to put our hands on the child.
Some
people will give up after 7 months because nothing have changed. But we
continue to trust God because God will not fail. God will accomplish what he
desires.
On the
8th month the doctor examined and there was a smile on the face of the doctor
and he said God has changed the situation. The big kidney became normal and the
smaller kidney became bigger and was working. And the doctor say 2 more weeks
for delivery. Because the child is big at 3 kilos and is good to deliver on 8
and a half month.
When we
arrived to church we were questioned again. If we still want to remain in this
church and still want to deliver, they will not pay for anything. When delivery
came we only had RM50. We went to BM and was clueless. Those called to the
counter paid the deposit and went for delivery. We did not know there was a
deposit needed. We just trusted God to provide.
When the
nurse called and we went to the counter, she told us to go to the labour room
without asking for a deposit. The nurse asked if we wanted 4 bedded or single.
To save cost we asked for 4 bedded room but she said 4 bedded full so we had to
take the single room with only RM50.
And she
asked what milk we wanted and we had no idea. She showed us the most expensive
milk. We only had RM50. In the room, a Thai lady asked us if we had money to
pay for the bill we said we only have RM50. She said you'll be here 3 days so
she said she'll loan us and transfer some money. But the Bible says we will not
be a debtor so we said no. As the lady said she wanted to lend us the money a
message came in to Pinky's phone and a church member sent a message to
congratulate us, told me to take a good rest and the day we leave the hospital
he will fetch us and take care of all the bills.
With the
problems with our child we got a special Visa. We are often questioned why we
come so often but with Peniel's problem we can come in and out without
problems. Hallelujah.
The hand
of God is not short nor his ear deaf that he cannot help you. There is two ways
to choose. Choose the easier way of the world and walk traditionally and walk
according to the majority or you want to choose to walk with Jesus. If you
choose to walk with Jesus you have to
walk with faith. If you don't walk with faith it is not possible to please God.
Let the word of God today encourage you. Through our testimony it's not that we
are special. God does not choose special people but it's about how we choose to
respond to God. We choose to be obedient and trust God. It's not just based on
the knowledge of the word of God but on how we respond to him.